Monday, July 07, 2008
Hihi, to those who had been visiting my blog and notice i never update it haha.
okie a brief update of june, 8th june to 11th june, i was away with my auntie's family and grandma to church camp in Meleka. Cool and wonderfuly place :D Really full of history and good food? lol joking haha. Had been there for 4 day 3 night but spend 2 days there singing KTV lol the 1st nite sang from 10.30 to closing time at 3am :X power right lol. But the next day never really get to sing much cause went with a grp of aunties, my grandma was there too. But she never sing, she just watch. When the aunties were singing their oldies, i noticed i knew alot of the songs sia. could it be that i was old too lol. Anyway, i enjoy myself during the camp.
on 9th june to 10th june went batam with my company for their 2nd anniversary retreat. To speak the truth, the resort sux. but okie lar, i enjoy the performance my grp did for the talent night lol. Bohemian Rhapsody was our item song, we act according to that song, man that was great. I love the team work that my team had shown and guess wat we come in 1st lol. Oh ya in the retreat, i won a lucky draw, 2nd prize , OSIM iPamper. Guess wat my mom say, seem like ur whole year luck only worth a SG$188 lol :X cause i was praying in my heart asking, 'lord, if u can allow me to get at least a lucky draw winning, i will be glad to exchange my reminding year luck for this prize lol.'
After returning back to school to work, i can say till the end of june most of my working hours 75% went to the preparation for SYF opening. although alot of funny thing and weird thing happens, i still think it's a great learning experience for myself.
Oh ya, actually the reason i'm posting was just a moment ago, i was doing some reflection to wat my best friend had told me. After thinking over for a long time, i am thinking maybe it is really time to let go of the feelings i having for him. If it drag any longer, i might ended up like years ago after the rejection i recieve from jx. But sense and emotion really don't work well together, i can't seem to get my heart to feel and think like wat my brain is thinking and feeling. My heart is arguing, all those logics i had send it to ask my heart to stop producing those feelings i'm having for him but it keep dening my sending, like it had set up a firewall to prevent the sending in of files that it had detected as trojan, virus or worm. What should i do, let go before i sink any further into this feelings and get hurt in the future and spend another 4 years or more on recovering or just stop my heart from plumping right away? I really don't know, it's been so long since i was in such a dilemma.
maybe i should spend more time on thinking of my religions instead of love affairs? as i think that will be better than wat i used to do when i was trying to come out of my hard shell years ago.
Anyway just to mark an ending to today blog, Happy YOUTH Day to all Youth and Youth at hearts :D