Thursday, July 24, 2008
Since yesterday the pit inside my heart is burning at million degree. Wat trigger the burning? Coz of a stupid old man lar, just because i sign out for the key that does not mean i'm the last one to leave the room. And most important, when we leave that room on wednesday all the 3 including me in the room had ensure tha the aircon were already off. And most important in the morning when i reach that room forgetting my schedule, i saw that none of the air con are on. yet during lunch hour, he blame me for not switching off the aircon and leaving it off overnite. Go damm it, if u really mind not offing the air con so much, go and install a system control that will cut the whole damm room off of electricity. Spend a lump sum now instead of spending hundred more each month finding ppl to blame. Last sem oso like that for another room, to ensure that i never leave any air con on, i will double check. Then got once during the afternoon duty to be stationed inside, i just leave the room to visit the ladies and check on other ccas' practices. So i leave the air con on for abt 10-20mins. But the next day, that bloody old man scream and yell saying i never off the air con. After explaining to him, knowing he is in the wrong yet, not a single apology. Lucky my hearing are slightly affected due to the ear infection that never really heal since Feb 08,if not i wonder will happen to my eardrum for listen to such a deaf defying volume. Then now i felt so reluntance to do my tuesday's duty. I rather stay in the hot, stuffy, full of germs and virus staffroom. To speak the truth, there are alot of signs of foul plays done by others. How i wish, i am able to catch them red-handed.
Then Today, ask my dad, how to go to Punggol Jetty. Already mention to him numerous times, i going there by taxi. So after exiting TPE toward punggol which way should i go in case the taxi driver doesn't know the way. And him , busy watching his WWE, keep saying take bus number 38 will be cheaper and take it to Punggol interchange there will have shuttle bus service to Punggol Jetty. BUT THE THING IS I'M TAKING TAXI THERE!!! NOT BUS!!! HOW MANY TIMES MUST I REPEAT MYSELF. Talk to you about the important of quit smoking, you just like to bring out tons of your friends' failures attempts of quiting or 'example' with no scientific proof of quiting smoking cause diseases.
And a lot of my frens they are so damm self centred. Told them i have my own planning for the evening i can't make it or other times for other stuffs, keep threatening me with all kinds of things like wat flavours i own them, the promises i make for them or the way they treat me.
To those who know whom i'm refering to, don't blame me if the day when i withdrew all forms of mean to contact me and cease to exist. When I'm getting used to think that I'm not appreciated as a friend or i'm being make use of, I doubts this time round my 'wall' will be that easy to tear down like the Wall of Berlin.
So many things i wish to make planning for myself, yet tons and numerous times i had to replan and reconsider due to families, friends and work. Will there ever be such a time when i can start to think only of myself selfishly and not worried abt wat the hell others humans are thinking?