Tuesday, September 30, 2008
I don't know why, i'm feeling weird again. For the past few days, or i can say weeks, this weird feeling keep coming back. Specially after some kind of thoughts start to surface from my brain...
Btw, recently alot of my thoughts are in my brain. The most recent that is bugging me was, are g and j dating each others? There are so many points that seems to be pointing toward the idea that they are both dating but when ask, both denied it. And this kind of reply will trigger another kind of thought to my brain. E.g: Are they saying the truth? or was it cause they feel that I can not be trusted, that why they don't wan to let me know.
All these kind of thinkings will bring me back to my final thinkings, are those human being i call friends trust me, or no source of information can be entrusted to me as in their eyes i'm not the kind of person they can trust their secrets and informations with. Too many thinkings are clotting up, Limei alway ask me to trust other human beings but don't open up first wait till i think i can trust then open up. But who can i trust? All homo Sapiens are the same, yet at the same time they are so different. So hard to understand I really wish, when i though i can trust another human, there will be other facts that will make me wonder are they telling me the truth or there are thing being hiden fron me? Who can i trust and who really trust me? Will there ever be a day when i can trust another human and be trusted back back?