Saturday, October 04, 2008
Just now, in about ten minutes ago, i watch a show from Disney Channel, Legend of the Ring of the Fire. It mention about legends on how does the moon come about in Thailand. The legend has it, that The Sun god, alway ride his chariot out daily and went back to his castle at night. One day while riding pass the sky, he saw a beautiful Siam Princess. She was so beautiful that what ever clothes she wore, it will illuminate a light glow. The Sun God fall instantly in love with her. Because of that, he was alway around her all the times and there is only Day time, droughts happens as all water are dried up by the sun. Remember during night time, those little tiny sparkles we call stars. In this legend, it mention that the stars are littles kids who only come out to play during the night sky when the Sun God return to his castle in the sky. Sad that they can't come out to play, they observe from the sky what was happening. In a sudden occasion, the sun left his chariot and follow the princess into a cave that she enter. Notice this, the stars send the chariot back to the sun castle, without his chariot nearby, the sun start to lose his powers. He also understand that he must return to his castle. Understanding the serious of the matter, the princess start to cry. From, the start, the stars also like the princess alot. So they make an agreement with the sun so that the princess will stop crying. One, the sun must return to his castle daily and two, the princess must become the moon to accompany the stars to play whenever the sun are in the castle. The sun understand that he is immortal but the princess is not. Knowing this, both become sad but both the sun and the princess agrees as from then on, they could be together in all eternity. So the Sun return to his normal duties, and the Princess become the moon and on the day we can't see her, she will be with the man of her love, the sun in the castle.
This part is the part that i find it lovely. but how was it possible for a woman to love another guy for eternity? If i have the eternity, will i be able to live through it with the same guy that i love? Or was it possible for tt guy to love me for all eternity without a change of heart? I really don't know cause even i myself don't think i can. To speak the truth, years ago, when i was in secondary school, i thought i will alway like a certian guy but after some disappointment and indirect rejection from him. I lost all my affection for him. Now today, after almost a decade, i had fallen for numerous guys but none were able to return the feelings i had for them. Till today, I'm alway playing the part of being a secret admirer. Will i ever had a chance to fall in love with anyone and get back the same feeling from him? Cause for 1 thing i'm sure now is, the guy that i love now won't be able to return back the feelings, specially since i don't even had the courage to confess to him.
I know, the start of my blog and the middle started to look weird but like i said recently, my thinking are getting weirder and weirder as the days goes. Who know maybe the day will come when my mood swing is so bad that i might felt that suicide will be a better way out. But at the moment, the swing is still in between trusting human and myself. So that still not too bad. Just that when the trust level got too low, i will had weird rejection effects on my physical, mental still okie. Let hope the day will not come that I will wish i had the technology to destroy the whole human population.