Tuesday, May 19, 2009
recently i reliease that i'm really not good with words specially to console others, and when i think of what the things to say, there is a high risk that the other party will be hurt more by my words, like rubbing salt to an open wounds. I wanted to console a friend, but i dreadful that whatever i say will add more stress and pressure to that friend, or reminded this friend's source of pain.
Whenever not required, i can talk non-stop, gibbish, rots all type of nonsense will so-call erupted out from my mouth. But when words of kindness or console i'm really deadmeat, i don't know how to console, as i felt that whatever i said sound so fake and unreal.
Anyway, i'm not sure what is going through the world right now, I heard bad news and good news. Yet, i can only say that i'm quite selfish that i'm only willing to bother about myself as i'm only concern how to allow myself not to hurt others, so that in return, they won't have excuses to hurt me back. But regardless what i do or did, i will still hurt other.
haiz dono wat the hell i'm typing already, all my brain are mixed up like in a blender...