Thursday, November 01, 2012
Is it true that dream is part of our consciousness?
If that is true, then I would have to wish that what I had been dreaming these past month nights and days dreams were not real.
I wish not to know of the feeling I had for him. But the more I denied my feeling, the worst my dream get.
I don't want to admit my feeling that I have.
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我是一个忘了如何哭的人。就连在我的外公过世时眼泪也无法流得很如现在。
我不想面对我对他所产生的感觉。可是每夜从梦醒时记起在梦里的他时的愉快，和在梦中对好友坦白的承认我对他的感觉时的解脱。让我不得不怀疑我对他的真正的感觉或是该说承认我对他的感觉。
对一个以忘了如何哭泣的人类来说，从梦里因当他知道我对他的感觉而从幸福之梦转换成噩梦时惊吓哭泣而起这点以让我知道自己以泥足深陷了。
无论心会多伤多乱和多痛。我还是决定将心封印起来。